AWOL with Pete

In some ways, I'm still stuck on you Pete, and in some ways, I'm not. Last night, when I was drunk, I was making out with a man who reminded me of you. It reminded me of my original fear of knowing that I've only met you once and wouldn't be sure if I would recognize and know it is you if I saw you again. I saw your friend in some of the arbitrage too. I have seen him more recently just a few months ago. I may eventually make up a name for him. I think you knew my drunken intent, so you're not too mad. You are still one to figure out Pete... I'm upset over some of the people that are included in your arbitrage. Josh, Jon aka "Jon Bellion," Tony, and Chris B. Unless someone is out to really trash talk you and seriously does not want me to want you, those are not good connections. It depresses me. I don't like the blind sidedness of it all because it is like you are living some kind of double and back stabbing life with me. In the past few days, your Bollywood could never feel any better, probably could, but it is like you have came and left my life at another time and there is just too much I don't know about the stalker you were. It is like you have done unforgivable things that I have yet to find out about and you give yourself these new fresh steps where we are really hitting it off, but I still know nothing of your other double life of a stalker. I think you should set the truth of your drama straight because I really don't want to put up with a real stupid soap opera where you bullshit your own drama and make up your own rules as you go along. I'm just not liking what I don't know about you Pete. The guys you have in your arbitrage does make me want to drop you like a hot pocket and I could get lost anytime I want, I just want a better sense of stability and getting you. Regardless of what you could have said against me, I don't want you to feel ugly or like I think you're ugly. You could be ugly on the inside but I think you're so sexy and attractive. I can hardly remember you, but you should know I find you attractive. While you are still being Bollywood on me for whatever reason, I hope you come to your senses soon. If you don't you're always going to be the reason to your own problem of my AWOL and why I can't stay tied to you. I'm upset if Josh, Jon, or Tony are still looking at me. I don't know what it is that has recently gotten into Josh. Maybe it was my attraction to Jack and he wanted to fight to stay in some kind of control? I don't know. I'm upset with Josh though. I know you're the one I gave the credit to Pete. I wish you were here in my life or not in my life with your Bollywood at all. How do you expect me to stay tied down to you?